LOCKED UP

I'm not gonna lie, I'm kind of sad about the fact I couldn't fully enjoy my student years at university as I planned. I'm sad that I couldn't travel and properly study. Fear of missing out is always present these days. Last week, I celebrated my 22nd birthday and I realized how strange it is to celebrate another birthday after a year of waiting. Because that's what all of us did for most of the year. Waited for better days when we`ll be able to finally go back to our lives, see our friends and family, go to music events, galleries, work, school… I would love to be optimistic and hopeful, but I can't really see the bright side of this situation anymore. I lost my job, my favorite activities, contact with other people, school in a certain way and also motivation and ability to be productive as I used to be. For the first time in my life, I feel like I lost control over everything and I know it's not my fault. At least I can spend a bit more time with my dog, who is really enjoying the fact, that going out to nature is all I can do these days.

I started working on my Bachelor thesis, which is about alternative funding for culture at a time when culture is prohibited. Culture is one of the most affected sectors and who knows to what extent we can maintain it. I would love to go to a library or cafe and work on my Bachelor thesis there, in a certain way I was looking forward to it. Changing your working environment is, in my opinion, a very important aspect when trying to increase your productivity. Now, I can only choose between the living room and bedroom and so my productivity is as limited as my choices of working space.

I really hope that the card turns over and with the stroke of the first minute of 2021, everything returns to normal. I didn't want this blog post to be so gloomy, but that's just the way it is. It is a period of time for which no one could prepare us, and whatever challenge we have faced, this one is particularly challenging.